The most extordinary thing happened this weekend. As most of you know I am doing Hal Hidgon's 5k training plan and just finished week two of that. Well Thursday night happened and the boy grilled out for us so needless to say I did not get my scheduled 1.5 miles in that day. Then Friday came and went and again training got put to the side.
When I woke up on Saturday I knew I had to get it done. I had two runs and a walk to get done before Monday and I wasn't going to let myself fall behind. Before I would have just gotten further behind and gave up because I couldn't keep up but those days are over! I didn't think when I woke up. I ate breakfast, I put on my workout clothes, laced up, and got on the treadmill. I didn't let myself try to talk myself out of it, dread doing it, put it off a little longer etc. I just went for it. I put on my ipod and made myself not look down. This wasn't about timing, distance etc this was about learning to enjoy a run, even if it was a little run, something I have never experienced before.
At first, I went slow. I didn't want to tire myself out too quickly. I had put a killer playlist to play during this ( you know where I could bust out the lip syncing hardcore in my own music video kind) And I just started running. I tried to just focus on the music, pushing myself more and more through each song. When I finally started getting tired I let myself look down at the treadmill. I was preparing to be let down. I was preparing to see that I had only run .8 miles or something that wasn't even close to my goal. When I looked down and saw 1.34 I had the biggest smile on my face. I knew I could finish this without stopping. I freaking did it! Tears started welling up in my eyes because I had accomplished something I wanted so badly. And it didn't kill me.
I was so proud in that moment and I finished strong. I felt on top of the world, so much stronger then I ever have before. I have always hated working out, even when I was thin. I couldn't even run a mile straight in high school. ever. I have never felt stronger then before, like I could do anything. It really is possible. You just have to believe in yourself. Hard work WILL pay off. For the first time in my life I actually started thinking that I could actually sign up for races, something I was so afraid to do before because of fear of failure. But now I feel like I can push myself to do anything. It's amazing what accomplishing one little goal will do to you to push you to do more.
I really am learning so much about this weight loss JOURNEY. About pushing myself to become a better version of me. The scale hasn't moved at all not even .01 since Friday and I don't even care. I feel so proud of myself after this weekend and all I want to do is push myself to be even better. It is possible. Little by little, day by day, accomplishing one goal at a time you really can do anything you put your mind too and I am only starting to see that it is really mind over matter. No matter what never give up. This is the one and only life were given and I don't plan on wasting another second of it ever again.
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